Perhaps we lost our way because we stopped looking.

I have now met the three people who got me back into acting. Karen Gillan, Billie Piper, and Matt Smith. And I've thanked all three of them for that change in my life and I only really cried with Karen but that was possibly in part because she was the first one of the three that I met. And I feel immensely proud of the fact that because of my emotional state, I caused her to get a little emotional. It's a weird thing to be proud of but that's okay.
The other thing is the only one I told that I wanted to be on Doctor Who was Billie Piper. And she was super cool about it too. In fact she told me to come join the family. All three of them told me to go for it and it was absolutely amazing and it's making me tear up a little just thinking about it. I can do it. I can do this. And with everything I'm learning in my acting class, I know I can do this. And apparently I have the part that a much higher percentage of actors have initial trouble with down almost instinctively. I just need to learn the technical stuff and have some training. Literally the amount of training I have is almost negligible and completely invaluable at the same time. It's just...I'm kicking myself for not having the confidence in myself the first time but at the same time I learned a lot and learned to have that confidence. Plus that time helped me get a little more comfortable in my own skin which is probably something I will always have trouble with and that is perfectly okay. I cannot be perfect. But I can try to accept myself as I am with feeling like I don't exactly fit with how I look. It's been an emotional three days. Four days. Whatever. And since I feel like I got the blessing of Karen, Billie, and Matt, I feel a bit more confident in myself and my ability to actually do this incredibly intimidating thing. I know this is ridiculously far in the future but I know what kind of a guest I want to be at Comic Cons when I am a guest because of the examples I had at this one.
These things just strengthen my resolve to actually act. It's amazing and wonderful and I cannot believe how blessed I've been. It's just amazing to me. And I know I'm overusing that word but it's true. I'm in awe. And I'm so excited and nervous and thrilled beyond description to be able to do something that I want to do.
The incredible thing is that one of my friends from my theatre class last semester and my production class this semester was there too but at a booth with her sister. And I feel like I got to share my excitement and experiences with her. And that was incredible too. I wish I could just give these feelings to others so that they can understand. But this is my journey and I want to share it with all of you.
I feel like I've reached a milestone. I'm not sure what it is, but I'm in the next stage of my journey. And I'm glad that we can go on this together.