Think furnace, with wings.

Quick update. I have an audition tonight. And I cannot for the life of me get James Nesbitt's voice out of my head. I am literally hearing his voice say the words as I say them and it's causing me to mimic. Which means I have a Scottish accent for half of my monologue. Really? Is this a necessary thing? Because I could swear it isn't.
For those who are unfamiliar with the name, he's Bofur from the Hobbit movies. And today is also apparently his birthday. Or whatever day it is right now over in Britain.
Now whether or not to give them warning about the accent changing in the middle of the monologue...

"In dreams, we enter a world that's entirely our own"

WHOO HOO!!!!!!!!! This is my first post in the new house! I officially have a home again because my parent's finally (FINALLY!!!!!) got everything settled and I am on our internet. YAY!! Tomorrow I kind of want to start getting my room painted. I'll put a picture up when that happens because it'll be awesome. At least I hope so.
Anyway, I am having a blast. Had an audition last night and that was absolutely amazing. I managed to surprise myself and I had them laughing. That's good considering the play is a comedy. Unfortunately, can't do callbacks and I explained that I couldn't because I wasn't going to be in town. Which is a shame because the play sounds completely interesting. Or, who knows. I'll get a part even though I can't come to callbacks. Doubtful but that's okay. There will always be more auditions in the future.
I've kind of taken one of the girls in my acting class under my wing because she reminds me greatly of how I'm feeling right now. She graduated from high school early (like two, three weeks ago) and isn't even eighteen yet. She seems a little overwhelmed, which is how I feel.
Also, hilarious thing is that she thought I was a sophomore. I'm pleased sort of because that's how I feel with this huge influx of transfers and *RMs coming for their first semester because the first round of the 18 and 19 year olds is coming in. Which is weird to think that the RM's are now barely older than I am. Which is completely bizarre to think about.
Also, one of the guys in my acting class is a brandy new RM. Name's Bradley and he just got back like two weeks ago. So total **greenie. It's adorable, it really is. Super adorable. Kinda cute but I kinda don't want to be thinking about stuff like that because I have work to do right now.
Sorry. Anyway, I'm loving everything I'm learning. It's just absolutely fascinating.
I was also told today by my acting professor that I commit. Yes. Yes, I do. I managed to nearly put a hole in a wall, nearly lose my shoe, and I did stub my toe in the space of about four seconds. But the pain was worth it.
OH I CAN'T BELIEVE I ALMOST FORGOT!!! So I'm going to Salt Lake FanX. And I'M GOING TO MEET MATT SMITH AND KAREN GILLAN AND BILLIE PIPER AND TOM FELTON!!!! DO YOU REALIZE WHAT THIS MEANS TO ME??????? Matt and Karen and Billie are essentially what got me back into the hope of acting. I owe them where I am right now and I will never be able to repay them or thank them enough for what they've done for me.

GLOSSARY OF MORMON TERMS
*RM-Return Missionary: those who have come back off of their LDS mission; missions typically last either 18 or 24 months
**Greenie: brand new RM; these are the socially awkward ones who have trouble being around females ESPECIALLY being alone with females; they also have a bunch of difficult adjusting to being a civilian again but most manage well eventually

"Our feelings can unite us."

Holy. Crap. Just had my first acting class and I discovered one thing and had another reinforced.
Firstly, I am very sensitive to changing energy. We did this exercise and I'm not entirely sure how to explain it. But my partner and I were very in tune with each other. Like we snapped into sync faster than any of the other groups. And on several occasions I was reacting to the shifting energy when the prof was sort of manipulating it. I'm just going to blame the hyperreflexia for the extra sensitivity.
But there was that. And then there was the fact that once again, I had reinforced my difference of thought. He asked us girls what our first thought was if he were to come to us and tell us there had been a fight.
Mine? Bloody. The others were more wordy and emotional. And when he asked us why he got into acting, I said to be more than I am. Which is a very versatile answer and more difficult to pin down a direct meaning than the other answers, which were about other people. Mine was about me. The prof also said that it was an interesting answer and he noticed how sensitive I am to energy which isn't something I was aware of before this. But it scarily makes sense for various reasons that I don't feel obliged to talk about or explain. That makes me feel like I have potential. There were two things he said today that gave me pause. First, "Love the character." Second, "We're all afraid and we're all in pain." 
And just from that one class, I feel more connected with people. Which is weird. Not really used to this.
But I did get to do some connecting, with sociology, which is what I was hoping for when I took the class which gave me many headaches.
Also, and just to put this down, that class was exhausting. I mean, granted I was up at 3:30 am for work but it was a little mentally grueling and I just want to sleep. But I can't as I have a class in, oh, twenty minutes.

I hope you all have a fantastic day and u will talk to you later.

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

So..I'm back. Not much has been going on. Mostly been trying to figure out my sound production thing for my intro to theatre class.
I am officially an Acting major which is now slightly scary when people ask me what my major is because I get this blink of surprise like "What? You?"
Yeah. I know. It's a surprise to all of us and I still have no ability to even pretend like this decision makes sense but I know what I want with my life. And I've been doing a lot of soul searching and having the Battle of the Five Armies coming out and having that be the end of this chapter in my life... I've been thinking a lot as I've been getting more understanding of exactly what I've gotten myself into.
But I can actually see myself doing that. Nothing else I've ever wanted to do could I see myself actually doing that. And I want to do this. Everything else, when I imagined the career, I would always imagine myself sitting back on my days off or retiring.
You all know that I've fallen in love with acting and it only took one part. I thought it would be hard to find something that I felt so passionately about because I'd resigned myself, the worst thing that can ever happen to someone. I'd resigned myself to a life I didn't want to live because I didn't dare to dream that I could have anything more, you know?
But it's so beautiful because I've always loved movies and TV and this way I'll get to do something that I love, and something that I am actually interested in. That is so special and I do not want to squander this opportunity.
But, anyway, big news! I was on the waitlist for a class that I needed for my major and I was kind of far down and I just put my faith out there and was like if I am meant to be in this major, I will get into this class. It's a film class so I'd like to take it even if it wasn't required for the major.
And yesterday, while I was at BotFA with my friend (which I'm taking as further confirmation), I got the email telling me that I'd had the class added. I shrieked. It was still during the previews so that was okay. But still. It's incredible and I am so blessed already.
Also, to show off my geeky self, Tolkien elvish (Sindarin) likes my mouth. So does Irish gaelic and that's probably why. Anywho, I love all of you lovely people. Never met any of you. But I love all of you anyway. Have a fabulous new year and remember. "Tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes in it."